It's been about a week since I sent the letter to my family. It may seem like a copout, I know, but I honestly feel it was the best way to handle my family. For those who are in the current century, I emailed the letter with accompanying offers of discussion from both my beautiful partner and from me. My mom received hers in the mail. It has only been a week, well for my mom it has only been a few days. I have received messages of encouragement from cousins, etc., but as yet I have heard nothing from any of my immediate family.
I followed up the family effort with a "mass mailing," okay it was a note published on Facebook... same thing. I am farther "out" than ever before. The only place I am not public is with my employer (and even there, a very large percentage of my colleagues and coworkers know, as they are either on my Facebook friends list or they talk to someone on my list). The only reason I haven't told my employer is that I don't think I'm quite ready to handle the stress that will bring. I need a week or two to settle down. (I also want to make sure that I do that one right, because I have a feeling it will end badly. I need to have all my ducks in a row, so to speak).
Next Thursday, I have my first appointment with a new counselor. I am very excited about that. It has been a long time since I've been to a counselor, and I certainly have enough to talk about these days!
It's been a rough week. I know that I am ready, and I know that I am prepared for the worst regarding family relationships, etc., but it still hurts. I've been crying a lot. Just a couple hours ago, I started crying in the middle of a restaurant, because the coleslaw I was eating reminded me of a salad my mom used to make... embarrassing. You know what though? I'm in a good place. My emotions are running very high these last few days, but I have never felt more confident in myself, more assured of my relationships with the loved ones near me, or more excited about our (and my) future. I love my life, and I know that the future - whatever it may hold - is going to be even better than today. More than anything though, I so deeply appreciate my wife and partner. She is my rock, and she has been such a strong support over the last few weeks (ever since I met her, but especially over the last few weeks). I don't know how I would do any of this without her.
Hope you are all having a great week!